I can't..

I just can't do this anymore.. 
and again I'm falling... everything is fading away.. I don't want this...
Why?.. Just Why?..
I want to be happy like anyone else.. 
They have friends.. lovers... a family...
There's nothing left to be found, nowhere to be safe.. I've been here before..
I have no one... but i need someone!
The sadness is killing me but nobody sees me dying...

Last time..

What if I died tomorrow...
Would you miss me here?
I know nobody would.. so I dont need to ask... the answer is clear...
This life is so depressing and I still sit there and hope that someone come and save me...
It looks like nobody will come...
It's such a hopeless moment...

Happiness

Everything will be ok…
I think everyone has heard this sentence once..
But it'll never be the same as before..
I can forgive but I can't forget all these things..

Hush…

Hush little baby,
Don't you cry,
Don't cut your arms,
Don't say goodbye..
Put down that razor,
Put down that light,
It may be hard but,
You'll win this fight!… <3

Alone..

Have you ever feel like drowning.. in your own mind?
If you think too much about your life and your way to live than you'll destroy yourself..
You'll remember how alone you really are.. 
Without real friends.. only with the voices in your head...
And you will remind that you can't do this anymore..
So alone.. without happieness... 
The only one who will scream your name are the demons in your head.. 
They will scream till you collsapse..
They want you to feel bad about yourself..
And when you think it's over.. than the game really begins..
....
I am so alone.. please save me 

I want to be…

I want to be a bird, who can fly away from all the pain… and never come back to this cruel world…'cause this world is driving the beautiful bird insane!

~Or have I already gone mad?